Tanha Musafir
us din mein kuch zayada hi bol gya,shayad nahi bolna chahiye tha,lekin kia kerta,itne din ho gye they wo kuch bata nahi rahi thi,her waqt chup chaap si,sehmi hui,shayad kuch kehna tha us ko,mein bus jaannna chahta tha ke wo kia baat hai,lekin wo kuch bata hi nahi rahi thi,is lie aaj mujh se raha na gya,aur najane kia kia bol gya,and yeh bilkul nahi socha ke us ko bura bhi lagey ga,bus bolta chala ja raha tha,achanak us ki taraf dekha,to uski aankhon mein aansoo aaye hue they, and jaise hi mein ne yeh dekha,ek dum pata nahi kia ho gya mujhe,yeh meine kia ker dia,,abhi kuch din pehle hi jab hum Iqbal park mein miley they to mein ne ek sunehri sham ko us ke chehre se zulfein hatate hue,us ki aankhon mein dekh ker kaha tha ke ," yeh tumhari aankhein bohat khobsoorat hain,in mein kabhi bhi aansoo na aane dena" , lekin yeh aaj kia ho gya,aaj meri hi waja se unhi aankhon mein aansoo aa gye,yeh meine kia ker dia, mujhe samaj nahi aa rahi thi ke kia karoon ab, pagal ho gya tha mein, and phir pata nahi kia kia bolta ja raha tha , is se pehle kabhi bhi hamari itni serious narazgi nahi hui thi, lekin yeh aaj kia ho gya,, kaise ho gya,, mein janta tha ke agar hamari kabhi bhi koi narazgi ho to wo kabhi bhi doosre din per nahi gyi, is lie aaj bhi mein yahi chahta tha ke phir se sab normal ho jaye , mujhe ek dum laga ke abhi wo chali jaye gi apney ghar , is lie jaldi se us ko apni kasam de di aur kaha ke " tum ko meri kasam,jana nahi abhi " , janta tha ke wo kuch bhi ker le lekin kabhi bhi meri kasam nahi torey gi , agar kabhi wo koi baat na bataye to mein apni kasam deta to wo bata deti, us ne zindagi mein kabhi bhi meri kasam nahi tori thi, aur mujhe lagta tha ke torey gi bhi kabhi nahi, is lie aaj jaldi jaldi phir apni kasam de di ke ruk jaye, taake sab theek ho jaye , us ne apney donoon hathon se chehre ko chupaya hua tha, aur mujh se yeh haalat dekhi nahi ja rahi thi, dil ker raha tha ke us ke sarey dukh le loon, her tara ki khushi la ker de doon us ko, lekin wo ek dum uthi, aur kaha, mein ja rahi hoon ghar, plz mujhe rokna nahi, aur mera moo aur aankhey khuli ki khuli reh gyi,aankhon ke saamne ek lamhey ke lie andhera aa gya jab us ne yeh bola, and mein kuch bol bhi nahi saka, and wo bye boley bina hi chali gyi, mein samja shayad mazak ker rahi ho and abhi murh ker aa jaye gi aur kahey gi ke bhala mein kabhi tumhari kasam tor sakti hoon, lekin aisa kuch nahi hua, wo chali ja rahi thi and mein aankhey kholey us ko dekta ja raha, ke shayad wo palat ker aa jaye, lekin nahi, dekhte hi dekhte wo chali gyi, and mujhe kuch hosh hi nahi raha ke yeh kia ho gya, kia itni kamzor thi meri kasmein ??? and mein ne pata nahi kitni der se apni aankhein nahi jhapki thi, dil ker raha tha ke aankhon mein aansoo aa jayein lekin nahi, sab aansoo ghayab ho gye they, aur bilkul khushk ho chuki thi aankhein, aisa lag raha tha ke jaise mein koi sapna dekh raha hoon, and abhi kuch der ke baad uthoon ga to sab theek ho ga, lekin nahi, yeh koi sapna nahi tha, hakeekat thi , ab apni kasam per bhi aitbar nahi raha tha, bus apne aap sa wada ker lia ke aaj ke baad zindagi mein kabhi bhi kiso ko bhi apni kasam nahi doon ga, phir pata nahi kitni der wahan betha raha and phir wapis ghar chala gya, aaj mein subha subha hi uth gya,raat ko bhi theek se so nahi saka tha,kuch bechaini si thi aaj,kuch intazar sa tha, haan aaj to hum ne milna tha na woheen, is lie aaj to mein jaldi jaldi uth gya, aaj wohi dress pehna jo us ko sab se zayada pasand tha, wohi perfume lagaya jis ki khushboo us ko sab se achi lagti thi, waisa hi hairstyle banaya jaisa us ko pasand tha, kabhi kabhi wo jaldi aa jati thi, is lie mein bhi aaj jaldi jaldihi aa gya tha yahan, mosam kafi acha ho raha tha, mein soch raha tha ke aane do us ko aaj,poochon ga us se ke kal kia kiya, koi asay bhi kerta hai kia,,, kabhi muaaf nahi karoon ga us ko, aur phir moo per smile aa jati, aaj mood kafi acha tha mera, soch raha tha ke bus wo jaldi jaldi aa jaye and 5 ya 10 mins mint mein hum baat clear ker lein and phir usi tara , normal, yehi sochta hua betha raha wahan, yeh intazar bhi kitna ajeeb hota hai, mein bus wahan betha hua chotey chotey pathar utha ker pani mein phenkta raha, 2 gantey ho gye lekin wo abhi tak nahi aayi, haan kabhi kabhi late ho jati thi, socha shayad aaj bhi late hi ho, bus isi tara time guzarta ja raha tha and mein usi tara wahan betha raha, kafi der ho gyi thi lekin abhi tak wo nahi aa rahi thi, ek do dafa khayal aaya ke shayad kal wali baat ki waja se wo aaj na aaye, , , , nahi nahi, asay kaise ho sakta hai ke wo na aaye, mein ne foran apne aap se keh dia, hum mein jitni merzi argument ho jaye,yeh nahi ho sakta ke wo aaye hi na, nahi bilkul nahi, and phir mein intazar kerne laga, kabhi kabhi uth ker idher udher chalta, kiyon ke bethey bethey bhi thak gya tha, 6 gantey ho chuke they lekin wo abhi tak nahi aayi thi, haan kabhi late ho jati hai, lekin aaye gi zaroor , mera dil keh raha hai ke wo zaroor aaye gi, and phir intazar kerne laga, agar kabhi wo din ko late ho jati to sham ko zaroor aati thi, aur mein ab sham ka intazar kerne laga ke sham ko to aye gi na, ab sham bhi honey ko thi, parindey aahista aahista apney gharoon ko ja rahe they, and thora thora andhera ho raha tha, and ab jo bhi nazar aata , mein ek dum uth ker dekhta, lekin wo koi aur hota, sham ho gyi, lekin wo abhi tak nahi aayi, ab to ajeeb ajeeb khayal aane lagey they, agar kabhi us ne na aana ho to wo fone ker deti thi, lekin aaj to fone bhi nahi aaya tha, and mein sochne laga ke hamari dosti ko 1 saal honey ko hai, and jitna mein us ko janta hoon, wo zaroor aaye gi, kiyon ke mera dil keh raha hai na ke wo aaye gi, and mera dil kabhi bhi kuch ghalat nahi kehta,, kabhi bhi nahi, wo zaroor aaye gi, bhala asay kaise ho sakta hai ke wo na aaye, koi kaam per gya ho ga na is lie late ho gi lekin aaye gi zaroor, ab to sham bhi guzer gyi and meri haalat bhi ajeeb si ho gyi thi, 10 gantey ho chukey they yahan, lekin wo nahi aa rahi thi, ghar se baar baar fone aaye ke kahan ho, ghar aayo, lekin kaise jata, kisi ka intazar jo tha, phir socha ke shayad kuch zayada late ho aaj, phir wohi beth gya, koi bhi aahat sunayi de ya koi aata hua dikhayi de to foran dekhta, lekin koi aur hota, poorey 12 gantey ho gye they wahan bethey hue, aakhri 2 din se theek se soya bhi nahi tha, kal raat ko bhi nahi so saka tha, is lie ab ajeeb si haalat ho chuki thi, lekin phir socha ke kuch der aur intazar ker loon, shayad tum aa jayo, phir beth gya, and time dekha to khayal aaya ke tum to sham ke baad ghar se nikalti nahi ho to phir abhi kaise aayo gi, mujhe aisa lag raha tha jaise koi sapna hai, samaj nahi aa rahi thi ke kia ho raha hai, kia tum aisa karo gi, itni bari saza do gi, phir 14 ghantey ke baad mein wahan se aa gya, wo nahi aayi, pehli dafa aisa hua, dil bohat nazuk hota hai na, aur bohat masoom bhi, bechara samajta tha ke wo aye gi, lekin wo nahi aayi, and ek dum yeh dil tooot ta hua mehsoos hua, bethta hua mehsoos hua, pata nahi kia ho gya is ko, pagal hai na yeh bhi, kehta tha aaye gi, kahan aayi wo,wo nahi aayi. written by my friend
us din mein kuch zayada hi bol gya,shayad nahi bolna chahiye tha,lekin kia kerta,itne din ho gye they wo kuch bata nahi rahi thi,her waqt chup chaap si,sehmi hui,shayad kuch kehna tha us ko,mein bus jaannna chahta tha ke wo kia baat hai,lekin wo kuch bata hi nahi rahi thi,is lie aaj mujh se raha na gya,aur najane kia kia bol gya,and yeh bilkul nahi socha ke us ko bura bhi lagey ga,bus bolta chala ja raha tha,achanak us ki taraf dekha,to uski aankhon mein aansoo aaye hue they, and jaise hi mein ne yeh dekha,ek dum pata nahi kia ho gya mujhe,yeh meine kia ker dia,,abhi kuch din pehle hi jab hum Iqbal park mein miley they to mein ne ek sunehri sham ko us ke chehre se zulfein hatate hue,us ki aankhon mein dekh ker kaha tha ke ," yeh tumhari aankhein bohat khobsoorat hain,in mein kabhi bhi aansoo na aane dena" , lekin yeh aaj kia ho gya,aaj meri hi waja se unhi aankhon mein aansoo aa gye,yeh meine kia ker dia, mujhe samaj nahi aa rahi thi ke kia karoon ab, pagal ho gya tha mein, and phir pata nahi kia kia bolta ja raha tha , is se pehle kabhi bhi hamari itni serious narazgi nahi hui thi, lekin yeh aaj kia ho gya,, kaise ho gya,, mein janta tha ke agar hamari kabhi bhi koi narazgi ho to wo kabhi bhi doosre din per nahi gyi, is lie aaj bhi mein yahi chahta tha ke phir se sab normal ho jaye , mujhe ek dum laga ke abhi wo chali jaye gi apney ghar , is lie jaldi se us ko apni kasam de di aur kaha ke " tum ko meri kasam,jana nahi abhi " , janta tha ke wo kuch bhi ker le lekin kabhi bhi meri kasam nahi torey gi , agar kabhi wo koi baat na bataye to mein apni kasam deta to wo bata deti, us ne zindagi mein kabhi bhi meri kasam nahi tori thi, aur mujhe lagta tha ke torey gi bhi kabhi nahi, is lie aaj jaldi jaldi phir apni kasam de di ke ruk jaye, taake sab theek ho jaye , us ne apney donoon hathon se chehre ko chupaya hua tha, aur mujh se yeh haalat dekhi nahi ja rahi thi, dil ker raha tha ke us ke sarey dukh le loon, her tara ki khushi la ker de doon us ko, lekin wo ek dum uthi, aur kaha, mein ja rahi hoon ghar, plz mujhe rokna nahi, aur mera moo aur aankhey khuli ki khuli reh gyi,aankhon ke saamne ek lamhey ke lie andhera aa gya jab us ne yeh bola, and mein kuch bol bhi nahi saka, and wo bye boley bina hi chali gyi, mein samja shayad mazak ker rahi ho and abhi murh ker aa jaye gi aur kahey gi ke bhala mein kabhi tumhari kasam tor sakti hoon, lekin aisa kuch nahi hua, wo chali ja rahi thi and mein aankhey kholey us ko dekta ja raha, ke shayad wo palat ker aa jaye, lekin nahi, dekhte hi dekhte wo chali gyi, and mujhe kuch hosh hi nahi raha ke yeh kia ho gya, kia itni kamzor thi meri kasmein ??? and mein ne pata nahi kitni der se apni aankhein nahi jhapki thi, dil ker raha tha ke aankhon mein aansoo aa jayein lekin nahi, sab aansoo ghayab ho gye they, aur bilkul khushk ho chuki thi aankhein, aisa lag raha tha ke jaise mein koi sapna dekh raha hoon, and abhi kuch der ke baad uthoon ga to sab theek ho ga, lekin nahi, yeh koi sapna nahi tha, hakeekat thi , ab apni kasam per bhi aitbar nahi raha tha, bus apne aap sa wada ker lia ke aaj ke baad zindagi mein kabhi bhi kiso ko bhi apni kasam nahi doon ga, phir pata nahi kitni der wahan betha raha and phir wapis ghar chala gya, aaj mein subha subha hi uth gya,raat ko bhi theek se so nahi saka tha,kuch bechaini si thi aaj,kuch intazar sa tha, haan aaj to hum ne milna tha na woheen, is lie aaj to mein jaldi jaldi uth gya, aaj wohi dress pehna jo us ko sab se zayada pasand tha, wohi perfume lagaya jis ki khushboo us ko sab se achi lagti thi, waisa hi hairstyle banaya jaisa us ko pasand tha, kabhi kabhi wo jaldi aa jati thi, is lie mein bhi aaj jaldi jaldihi aa gya tha yahan, mosam kafi acha ho raha tha, mein soch raha tha ke aane do us ko aaj,poochon ga us se ke kal kia kiya, koi asay bhi kerta hai kia,,, kabhi muaaf nahi karoon ga us ko, aur phir moo per smile aa jati, aaj mood kafi acha tha mera, soch raha tha ke bus wo jaldi jaldi aa jaye and 5 ya 10 mins mint mein hum baat clear ker lein and phir usi tara , normal, yehi sochta hua betha raha wahan, yeh intazar bhi kitna ajeeb hota hai, mein bus wahan betha hua chotey chotey pathar utha ker pani mein phenkta raha, 2 gantey ho gye lekin wo abhi tak nahi aayi, haan kabhi kabhi late ho jati thi, socha shayad aaj bhi late hi ho, bus isi tara time guzarta ja raha tha and mein usi tara wahan betha raha, kafi der ho gyi thi lekin abhi tak wo nahi aa rahi thi, ek do dafa khayal aaya ke shayad kal wali baat ki waja se wo aaj na aaye, , , , nahi nahi, asay kaise ho sakta hai ke wo na aaye, mein ne foran apne aap se keh dia, hum mein jitni merzi argument ho jaye,yeh nahi ho sakta ke wo aaye hi na, nahi bilkul nahi, and phir mein intazar kerne laga, kabhi kabhi uth ker idher udher chalta, kiyon ke bethey bethey bhi thak gya tha, 6 gantey ho chuke they lekin wo abhi tak nahi aayi thi, haan kabhi late ho jati hai, lekin aaye gi zaroor , mera dil keh raha hai ke wo zaroor aaye gi, and phir intazar kerne laga, agar kabhi wo din ko late ho jati to sham ko zaroor aati thi, aur mein ab sham ka intazar kerne laga ke sham ko to aye gi na, ab sham bhi honey ko thi, parindey aahista aahista apney gharoon ko ja rahe they, and thora thora andhera ho raha tha, and ab jo bhi nazar aata , mein ek dum uth ker dekhta, lekin wo koi aur hota, sham ho gyi, lekin wo abhi tak nahi aayi, ab to ajeeb ajeeb khayal aane lagey they, agar kabhi us ne na aana ho to wo fone ker deti thi, lekin aaj to fone bhi nahi aaya tha, and mein sochne laga ke hamari dosti ko 1 saal honey ko hai, and jitna mein us ko janta hoon, wo zaroor aaye gi, kiyon ke mera dil keh raha hai na ke wo aaye gi, and mera dil kabhi bhi kuch ghalat nahi kehta,, kabhi bhi nahi, wo zaroor aaye gi, bhala asay kaise ho sakta hai ke wo na aaye, koi kaam per gya ho ga na is lie late ho gi lekin aaye gi zaroor, ab to sham bhi guzer gyi and meri haalat bhi ajeeb si ho gyi thi, 10 gantey ho chukey they yahan, lekin wo nahi aa rahi thi, ghar se baar baar fone aaye ke kahan ho, ghar aayo, lekin kaise jata, kisi ka intazar jo tha, phir socha ke shayad kuch zayada late ho aaj, phir wohi beth gya, koi bhi aahat sunayi de ya koi aata hua dikhayi de to foran dekhta, lekin koi aur hota, poorey 12 gantey ho gye they wahan bethey hue, aakhri 2 din se theek se soya bhi nahi tha, kal raat ko bhi nahi so saka tha, is lie ab ajeeb si haalat ho chuki thi, lekin phir socha ke kuch der aur intazar ker loon, shayad tum aa jayo, phir beth gya, and time dekha to khayal aaya ke tum to sham ke baad ghar se nikalti nahi ho to phir abhi kaise aayo gi, mujhe aisa lag raha tha jaise koi sapna hai, samaj nahi aa rahi thi ke kia ho raha hai, kia tum aisa karo gi, itni bari saza do gi, phir 14 ghantey ke baad mein wahan se aa gya, wo nahi aayi, pehli dafa aisa hua, dil bohat nazuk hota hai na, aur bohat masoom bhi, bechara samajta tha ke wo aye gi, lekin wo nahi aayi, and ek dum yeh dil tooot ta hua mehsoos hua, bethta hua mehsoos hua, pata nahi kia ho gya is ko, pagal hai na yeh bhi, kehta tha aaye gi, kahan aayi wo,wo nahi aayi. written by my friend